Well I borrowed a book from the library ‘WordPress for Dummies’ to help me with my blogging but it hasn’t been very helpful so far. I guess what I’ve really learned is that no one can tell you how to blog, it’s really something you have to discover yourself. So I’m more determined than ever to really get into this.

I think the best way to kick off is with a new theme. What do you think? Time for a makeover?

I was thinking of putting photos up too… Flicker stream? Or maybe something more like a scrap book. I’ll really have to get back to work on the toy box too, that’s pretty lame at the moment

Ooooh and I should make emoticons too. I did give it a shot but I wasn’t very happy with the outcome. Anyway I’m going out tomorrow night so I’ll take my camera and try to snap up some great shots to get started on that album

******Updated Crystal Shards******

Somehow I knew something would happen today. Though I had every reason to look forward to it, I was afraid to go to sleep. This is for Benjamin ‘Bones’ Ashley or Ben as we always called him.
A beautiful, regal and loving dog; he passed away today at 11:30, just shy of new years.
He missed out on seeing his third decade…

Here is a poem that I found at http://www.novareinna.com/bridge/didee.html, I have changed very little. Even before Ben’s passing it never failed to bring tears to my eyes. This is an abbreviated version:

I think back to when you were with us…laying beside the
rocking-chair;
But your eyes were dull and listless and your spirit wasn’t there.
We whispered, “One more Christmas,” and you granted our
request,
As you always did each time we asked that you give us your best.

With the celebrations over, you made it very clear
That it would be selfish of us to insist that you stay here,
For your essence had departed, leaving just an empty shell,
And the body that remained desired to follow…we could tell.

So, we agonized and asked each other what we ought to do
Because we didn’t want to face the fact that we were
losing you;
But we really knew the answer…we would help you to the end.
Was the very least that we could do for such a faithful friend.

We took a walk when we got home, in memory of you… as I walked through your favourite path I could imagine you as clearly as if you were really there. The times when you bounced and barked, ran and played. The sadder times when you were older and each step was harder, your nose low to the ground; we’d often end up carrying you home.
As I laid some wild flowers on the park bench for you I couldn’t stop the tears rolling down from my eyes…
If I’d know that last night was the last time I’d hear your bark, that I’d never again pat your head or scratch your back, that I wouldn’t be there for you, see your final moments… I would have knelt on the ground and spent the night petting you, watching you sleep… hoping that you knew just how very dear you were to us…

His memory will always live on in our hearts

R.I.P. Ben

Feb 1995 - Dec 2009

SO Christmas has come and gone and the days continue to flash my in a dazing blur. It reminds me of the song “In The Pink”; “and the days pass by as quickly as a wink”.
Yep that’s the holidays alright.
And now I have a $50 card to spend at iTunes, I’m stoked ^__^
I’ve already bought “According to You”, “Bulletproof”, “Fireflies”, “Art of Love” and “22″ XD

It’s funny, you work so hard during the year and you just hang out for the holidays. As you study your hardest you promise yourself that it will all be worth it because soon, soon you will be free. And everything is so tempting when you are studying. But suddenly everything really is over and the holidays are never as great as you hoped… nothing is nearly as fun as it was when you should have been studying instead and you feel bored. Because all at once all that pressure and all that study that was always there is gone… there is nothing that you have to get done, no piece of work in urgent need of attention.

Your whole existence is flipped on its head and there’s nothing to do… it’s kind of a hollow freedom.

I’m not sure if everyone feels this way, heck maybe I’m just a workaholic but it feels so unproductive.

Well maybe the best thing about the holidays is that you can finally hang out with your friends as much as you want, so I guess I just need to get out there and party *slams fist* (but is sort of doubtful that this will happen)

Oh we put up the tree, I found a decoration that was bought for my first Christmas, it had my name and birth year on it, it was really sweet <3

OK I’m two exams down now, three to go :S

I’m using today as a much needed break but I do feel a bit guilty I really should be studying for Chemistry, oh well I’ll get around to it soon :9

I went to a Halloween party, it may possibly have been the first party I have ever gone to without a really close friend, I tried to socialise but most of the people were a few years younger and had their own friends. Eventually people from work turned up and I could talk to them a bit. I mainly survived by texting a… um… friend and imagining how much better it would be if one of my friends were to show up or imagining taking a dip in the pool :P.
Ahhh well I do live just next door to the girl (who is also one of my managers) who had the party and I left after about 2 hours. I felt a little guilty afterwards I probably should have stayed a bit longer.
*Sigh* there is such a thing as too shy and I think that would be me

Can’t wait for Christmas, I’m already thinking about our Christmas tree and all the pretty decorations and starting to practice Christmas carols on my keyboard and flute

Oh I’m also on the lookout for a second hand piano, I’ve been doing piano lessons for over 10 years I deserve a piano now right? I’m so tired of not being able to play some notes because my keyboard isn’t long enough, tired of not having the pedal to make the notes longer, not being able to really practice technique like playing softly etc. until I have my piano lesson

Hahah I just re-read over this and it’s a little scattered, sorry about that I’m feeling more and more guilty about not studying I should really get onto that now -__-

Well classes are nearly over now and I have to get ready for the end of year exams.

I also have to pick next years units and I have no idea yet as to what I would like to do O_O

I really hope I can get myself ready for these exams in time :S

But aside from all these not so nice prospects at least by the time New Moon comes out in Australia I will be all done and I can finally relax and take a much earned break I can’t wait!

Wow I went on my first ever date last night, we went to a really nice little cafe. I was really shy and nervous at first but then I really enjoyed myself

Oh I’m also on holidays at the moment but going back to Uni on Monday :S I’m really worried about the upcoming exams! They are only 4 weeks away now

Work was great last week, I really enjoyed myself. Can’t wait to work tomorrow <3

Oh I got graded in Judo now too. I am now a senior green belt ^__^

So aside from uni I guess life is pretty good. Wish I’d studied more during the break though :/

My computer fails at life

Wew! I finally got a job

I am now a waitress at an Italian restaurant ^^

Haha I love driving home from Uni and watching all the people weave in and out of traffic. You look ahead and indicators flash on and cars swerve into new lanes and it feels like some sort of synchronised dance that you could put music to <3 (huh maybe I’m just weird though :P)

Special game of the day: making words out of the letters of cars number plates as you are banked up in peak hour traffic, my favourite today was WZQ which I made Wild Zombie Queen hehe

Oh also I’m still working on the theme but at least it is all working properly now ^_^’

I’ll update my story soon too.